My World

My world has shrunken into mirthless laughter

I smile at you knowingly

You smile at me hopefully

Wistful that I am of your love

Still I know of your love me

My resolve to smile

And be the one you want

Will tear me apart

Will render me dead

I still try to be the one

Tears have stopped flowing

Sunlight has stopped making sense

Obstinate pains trickles down my cheeks

You can make me forget my woes

But your presence scares me

I didn’t know love

You made me realize it

May be it had arrived

Without my acknowledging it

May be it had seeped deep inside

But a day will come when I will have to go

Can death be a solution?

But no, it’s not

My dreams lay on your feet

Can I hold its fingers to help them stand?

I grin so you won’t see the sorrow I live

I laugh so you won’t feel what I think

But yes, I think.

I resolve to make my world simpler

Yet again this love maims all hope

Your absence does no harm

Your presence does

I love you yet I can’t reach you

You love me yet you can’t have me

Why my world can’t be simpler?

This mirthless laughter rings

And you think I am happy and shallow

I am content to make that impression

I am content that you don’t know sorrow

For I am old enough to understand

I should walk away and never come back

My reason for sustenance is you

But you will find happiness away

You make me feel worthy of being alive

My world has shrunken around you

Yet I laugh mirthlessly to prove otherwise

My world is complete without you

But I am incomplete forever…