I am very happy today. No
reason. Or wait there is a reason. I went shopping and bought a designer Saree
that had caught my eye almost a year back and somehow it was not sold. Probably
it is too expensive as per the market norms and was not actually worth the
price or may be it was just waiting there for me. Whichever is true, I got it
and the sense owning it has made me little too cheery. I therefore enjoyed a
movie more than I normally would.
So, when I sit in that
happy mood on my 15th floor balcony, I get a little philosophical thinking that
now I have started to need reasons to be happy. Since when we started having
the needs of owning material objects to feel the joy that should come naturally
to us. Isn't sadness the thing that comes with reasons. I was happy when got
this house, mind you its still on rent but yes its mine. I was happy when I got
my wedding dress designed. I was happy when I bought a phone (tablet).
I don't have the days or
reasons when I truly was happy without any specific material reason. I remember
the day when my first boss from second job (boss was same and so was the
office) asked me why are you smiling, share it with us and make everyone smile.
I replied that since when people started needing reasons to be happy. He told
me that I am going bonkers if I am smiling or being happy for no reason. And
back then I just smiled at him. But now honestly, I have changed to be like
him, and this is not a change that I wanted to happen to me.
I indulged in the race that
I once avoided and now I have become a rat, but who cares if I win or not. I
wish to be happy, the way I was on the day my boss told me I am mad. I wish to
be happy like the day I hugged my niece and she kissed me back. I wish to be
happy to see my father smile when he saw the smartphone I and my sister gifted
him.
They still are reasons but at least they are
intangible assets. I wish there would a day soon where I would be happy without
reasons, until then intangible assets should do.
